Saturday, November 22, 2014

A Date with The Bachelor

I hung out with The Bachelor last night. We hadn't seen each other in two weeks. I can pretty much assume that in that time he was with someone else because he is of course, The Bachelor....

I go back and forth about this "issue" and I just never really know how I feel about it.

I mean here are the facts:

1. I don't want a boyfriend.
2. He could never be my boyfriend.
3. He is seeing other people. 
4. He will never be tied down to one woman.
5. He's hot.
6. He makes me laugh.
7. He's hot.
8. When I think about him I get tingly all over my body.
9. He will never change.
10. I am changing everyday.

But regardless of all that, when we hang out, we have fun. I just don't want to play games ya know? Like: I text him he doesn't respond for 3 hours....then he writes back and I ignore it, until he texts for a second time and so I respond something clever and sexy...so on and so on...blah blah blah...I'm too old for this!

I asked him last night if he ever longed for a relationship...someone to love...someone to go to bed with at night...didn't he want that? Crave that? I could tell it made him uncomfortable...but I just don't understand how he can go through life like this...single....with no thoughts as to settling down.

I know that I want love. I need love. I love-love. I also know I can't have love right now. I need to be broken for a while and walk though my storm to find the right love.

So, until then, I guess I will ride the Bachelor wave until it crashes....it's been about three months, so I am assuming it won't last much longer....right? 


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